Epitaph - writing in praise of the death.

Evolution - Transformation

 

Two words with different definition but at this moment, it means the same.

 

Through the death of my old self, I am reborn.

Through the changes I have experienced, transformation will be evident.

 

Friends:

Friends will come and go, statement that has been synonymous with loads of conversations or experience of other people.

There would be a bond of friendship that seems to last for a lifetime. Beware that this would only seem that way for that particular moment and in time this "bond" WILL eventually fade away.

 

Attacked:

Dearest friends who are companions will one day Hurt you, when you least expect it or when you need them the most. On days that you show your weakness, when you seek for a helping hand, the opposite happens.

 

Family:

The support will always be there, but at times you wish that you always had something more. Born with much more than what has given to you, this will not always be the case.

Improvement will be made, not by the elders that have tried but by the generation now that would try to change the stature of the family. The children will have more pressure and have to go through drastic changes to bring the best for the family.

 

Love:

It may seem impossible to find your soulmate and when you do, its either that person has been taken or is far-far away. Efforts will be made, feelings will be bluntly spoken but there is always a hindrance to completing your dreams.

It is always the person you want the most that you can never have, guys would make grave effort to be noticed but she wouldn't budge or she would keep you eager and waiting until that one day. That day where your nightmare turns into reality, sweet words such "You are all I want now and forever", will remained forcibly unheard.

All efforts will be forgotten and you will be non-existent in the end.

 

Dull:

The feeling of dullness runs all over, the morning that shines with rainbow colors are now seen with a shade of gray. How will I wake up everyday looking forward to nothing, the simple but special things that make your day alive, which keeps you going is now rotten in existence.

 

Reason:

Why does it always happen the hard way, why does it always happen when you least expect it.

 

Breaking Down:

The Weight was extremely heavy to carry and my knees gave in.

Face slammed deep to the muddy grounds.

Several days of self pity and loneliness.

Excitement turned into Disappointment.

Smile into Sadness.

Hope into failure.

The thought of giving in,  not being able to recover.

Tears are not falling anymore.

 

 

This is the Epitaph of:

The feeling of love that I once had towards her, makes it difficult to start hating her. Despite the humiliation, the pain, the dreams that are now shattered, I wouldn't want to despise her. Friendship is what she wants, but leaving me wondering and hopeful is not an act of friendship but an act of upsetting intent.

Will my feelings turn into hatred? Or will my heart be kind?

 

Transformation:

Now I say I am a better man, smarter, stronger and braver.

I have taken risks more than my own expectations, did things that even surprised me for the person I cared most. But in the end it does not matter.

I will not be a fool nor a puppet to be toyed.

The weight is back on my shoulder.

I have EVOLVED.

Got this from Kaye's Blog:

You Are Bart Simpson Very misunderstood, most people just dismiss you as "trouble."

Little do they know that you're wise and well accomplished beyond your years.

You will be remembered for: starring in your own TV show and saving the town from a comet

Your life philosophy: "I don't know why I did it, I don't know why I enjoyed it, and I don't know why I'll do it again!"

 Almost a year it has been since my last post here, I don't even know how to start anymore (backspace3). It has been several months of continuous deadlines and lack of time to even browse my own blog, but here I start again, it's my return.

 Soon enough I would be able to give you all an insight of myself and what has been going on with me.

 First of all, I would like to thank all of my friends for everything they have done for me, enough thanks have not been going around. All of you are great! I really appreciate the friendship we have, just really miss the days of the past, good all days that we love to reminisce.
 
 And here we all are now, living our own lives; Putting more attention on priorities, on work and definitely much more important things. Old days of hanging out together are getting harder, but the thought I am sure has always been there, the thought of how the other person is doing.

 But as the American Rejects would say we got to "MOVE ALONG to make it thru". We all are damn well moving along, and I know everyone has their own path of comfort: If you guys are not there yet, you will be in that point sooner or later. I know I will be.

 

   It has been a long time since I last wrote in this blog mine. Hence, here is my latest entry.
  I haven't had much time for myself this past few months as I have started working as a customer care specialist at IBM-Daksh. Its work at night and sleep the whole morning and afternoon and I could barely watch a single television show and rarely touch the computer at home. Although starting this monday the shift is shorter and the schedule is excellent, 9.30pm to 6.00am. I have the chance of catching up on several tv shows that I have missed the last few months and have more time for relaxing and enjoying my time at home.

   The work has been stressful nevertheless it has been fun, thanks for the group of new friends that I have now and the ever faithful LSS for being patient, supportive and comic. Surprisingly on the graduation ( Cool huh! graduation for work) after the 2 weeks of Lab training, I have won a couple of awards one of which is -=Mr.Congeniality=- "as if!" hehe! And I thank my friends for this for their votes, it was really unexpected and delightful! And the night became more interesting, wherein two of our friends -=both girls=- got drunk, and man the way they were arguing was really entertaining and the way they spoke english its as if they were experts, although the topic was cartoons and tv shows. HAHAHA! :p
Work has been great, but its getting tougher. I just hope I can perform better on monday, know more people and gain more friends.

   I have missed my group of friends from college. Everyone has been so busy in their own world that meeting up or at least having time to socialize has been impossible. Although I give my respects for the efforts of "Anna and others" who have tried to make plans to meet up, unfortunately no one seems to be willing to make this happen or the plans to be complete. Yes, it has been hard, it has been a long time, others do miss the group but it just ends there. Planning and inviting is never easy, but saying no seems to be the link of the majority.
   Nonetheless we will try to work this out, and hopefully find a way for all us to meet up again and enjoy the stories that we would share of our "New Life"..

   As I end my blog for today I wish to hear from you guys soon, text message is just a buck. It shouldn't be hard to pick up the Camera-phone and type a message that you could send to your friends, it could take only a few minutes rather than taking pictures of yourself the whole day! I myself have been guilty of this, but as a reminder a message could go a long way.

   Everyone has their own roads, coming from afar and from places close by, but these roads shall meet again. At everyones crossroads. If there is a "Wheel there is a Way"

   I hope to see you all soon or worst case hear from you at least!
   Till here, till the next available time I get! :p

      -Jivu! :)
 

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I dont wish to post any more pics in my blog, hehe! im feeling lazy.

  If you are interested in stories with lousy endings, you would be better off reading some other blog. In this blog, not only is there a great ending, there is a happy beginning and very much happy things in the middle. This is because many happy things happened in TAGAYTAY with the lives of 12 friends.




Some of which came from places afar,                               While others from places nearby,



Where they were women with various smiles and men of different faces.


  Happily they ate lunch together, saying jokes and making fun of each other.

 

--------=> To be continued.